The Broken Heart – An Ode To An Eternal Love Story Left Untold

- A Dream -           

            Life is all it takes to live in the present and that is it. But here, what we do every day is survival and search for a life which actually does not exist at all. Just imagine that you are living your bizarre wildest dream literally. A gigantic ship breaks down in the mid-Atlantic Ocean and you are freezing to death. There will be moments once the havoc happens which your brain will preach that you could survive somehow. As the minutes pass by, unconsciously your nerve drops and the hope of life starts disappearing bit by bit. A fight erupts within you whether to go for the life you truly deserve to be lived more or let go without facing the toughest non-sense reality prevailing outside. Your brain leaves you aside and there will be only your heart controlling you meticulously. There will be again moments of little hope and huge good-bye to the world. You are freezing like the polar ice and start drowning slowly into the deepest ‘black’ ocean. Your legs begin to tap for a life that doesn't exist. Your lungs want to breathe in as much air as possible for the one last time. Your hands wish to reach above the sea level and at-least ask for help for God’s sake. Those will be the minutes of your life that you would have lived to the fullest. There is hardly anyone inside that deadliest ocean to save you and that moment when you realize your dreadful loneliness, it is the most painful thing ever a soul could face. You keep drowning till the bottom and touch the land that you could never feel or maybe you might die before you touch at all. For the courtesy being attached to a soul’s body, your limbs will shiver. The moment will lead to an eternal silence. Your breath will never respond to your conscience. There is only one way to go to reach comfort and that is leaving your soul out of your own. There will be no brain. There will be no sunshine anymore. There will not be opportunities from here on to be with your dearest. There will no space. There will be no time. There will be only the heart echoing in that eternal silence which will be heard by none. The heart pleads, begs for mercy, punches every living cell to death and forgives the pain-givers at the very last moment. There will not be any desires. There will not be hope. There will be no God. There will be no Love. All that is left is regret that there is a promise which has been left unfulfilled.

            A promise made to your dearest leading to live this ‘one born’ life forever together. A promise pledged that whatever may happen, we together stand firm and beat all the ‘odds’ and achieve a life that we truly deserve. A promise made of eternal love united by Godly elements and driven by life’s biggest passion of being ‘us’ and not ‘me’ or ‘You’. A promise done that will stand between your life and death. A ‘promise’ decided in the name of God, heaven and Earth that could be only broken by death. A promise made to be immortal in every form which has never let mortal beings take leverage about it. But this ‘promise’ made never did anything except an intolerable pain and this cruel death day by day.

      

Deep from the deepest of the deadliest ocean, you keep wishing to rise from the dead which you already are. However, your wounds in life never let you come out of it. Your vulnerability and unpredictability which has led to the gruesome hatred in your life never even wants the soul to rise again. A part of your heart beats for the promise to keep while the largest part of your heart wishes to fade away in death. This fight of eternity is what love could give you at the end of it all. It all ends today. There is no life anymore. Always the bigger wins over the innocent smaller. Even in the societies we dwell in, large influential families take their own decisions and suppress the smaller, good-thinking, help-minded innocent family souls. It is not just about love and happiness of a living-being, for the narrow-minded ‘large’ families, it is all about the invisibly cruel ego, esteem, self-privilege, status, money and what not; it does include every form of trash, useless prejudice and pointless relative-peer pressure.

"வாயில்லாமல் போனால் வார்த்தையில்லை பெண்ணே..

நீயில்லாமல் போனால் வாழ்க்கையில்லை கண்ணே..

முள்ளோடு தான் முத்தங்களா சொல் சொல்!

பாவையில்லை பாவை ,தேவையென்ன தேவை.. 

ஜீவன் போன பின்னே சேவை என்ன சேவை ..

முள்ளோடு தான் முத்தங்களா சொல் சொல்!"

                       "காற்றின் அலை வரிசை கேட்கின்றதா..கேட்கும் பாட்டில் ஒரு உயிர் விடும் கண்ணீர் வழிகின்றதா.. நெஞ்சு நனைகின்றதா..இதயம் கருகும் ஒரு வாசம் வருகிறதா"

"வானம் எங்கும் உன் பிம்பம்; ஆனால் கையில் சேரவில்லை!

காற்றில் எங்கும் உன் வாசம்; வெறும் வாசம் வாழ்க்கையில்லை!

உயிரை வேரோடு கிள்ளி, என்னைச் செந்தீயில் தள்ளி, எங்கே சென்றாயோ கள்ளி..

ஓயும் ஜீவன் ஓடும் முன்னே, ஓடோடி வா.."

                   Love is a pledge; love is a bond for life; love is selfless; love is selflessly ‘selfish’; love is independent; love is not dependent on any other ‘external force’; love is internally-woven; love is a promise that lives forever. There have been moments in history where people have waited eons and eons for their disappeared loved ones to come back to them, only to find their death when that person never came back. There have also been moments when people have lost their lives in the nature of impossible chance to live together. I often wish that I could have born in that era. That era meant no travelling and everything happened domestically and not like today where people travel and stay away from home and made to be present in that moment where love happens and finally all end up in a disaster. You never knew when love happens but it just happens in the space of time by a heavenly force. A life full of love happens completely in that fraction of a section and from there on it only keeps growing to infinity like there is no sky or a universe to bind it. Nobody really knows what the future holds for you but when love happens, you decide the future presuming that you are the God of your destiny. But all that happens is a pure ‘lie’ which has never really been told even though millions and millions of souls have faced this ugly truth and still living like the logs of wood meant for house-fire. That moment of lifelessness takes away all your desires, hope, love, music and God in you. All it leaves behind is a soulless body of yours which is certainly depleted. You are left alone feeling like an age-old suffering in medical pain in the terrible winter in the Arctic continent. You wonder what life is all about and when you look back there is nothing but emptiness. You are said to ‘assume’ that we live in each other forever and for the information, that ‘assumption’ is the most dreadful thing as it keeps reminding about the dearest’s absence along-with the ‘golden’ memories and the present pain inside the unblessed soul of the sufferer. You cry like a man pleading for water in a desert, ultimately drinking his own tears. You become insane to the fact that your own room seems to be bigger like the whole world and it terribly frightens you to step outside. You feel like life is converging to a point called as “death’ and you keep wishing to converge any time sooner. Sooner the better will be your inner-call.

"உன்னாலே உயிர் வாழ்கிறேன் உனக்காக பெண்ணே; உயிர் காதல் நீ காட்டினாய் மறவேனே அன்பே! 

இதுவரை உன்னுடன் வாழ்ந்த என் நாட்கள் மறுமுறை வாழ்ந்திட வழி இல்லையா..

இருளில் தேடிய தேடல்கள் எல்லாம் விடியலை காணும் விதி இல்லையா..."

            Honestly, there is only ‘one life’. Naturally, you cannot know whether you are now living your n^th life or have you ever lived before nor will you live after. You are also not sure that whether you will be meeting your dearest in the next birth or not. It is poetically great to listen but the pure truth is that there is only present and only this moment which you are breathing now is real and nothing else. So life with so much of fantasies can now be narrowed down to this present point where there is only truth and let us understand there is only one opportunity for the world’s eternal beings in love ever. “If not now, then when? If not you, then who?” are the truest wisdom which needs to arise now. You need to be independent to lead a life that you truly deserve else there is no point in the ‘act’ which we all gratefully perform. “Deserve your dream” is the ultimate point in anyone’s life and if there is no life at all, then there could be no dreams which you know you deserve. If you do not live to deserve your dream, then what is the essence of life from its most fundamental point? True! There are always situations in life which gives us two options like the drowning to death in the Ocean. There will be hurdles, there will be tears, there will be panic but all that takes it make you live an ‘unworthy’ life. There will be sacrifices, there will be inconsolable pain, there will be loss but all it leads a pointless life which you often there is no need to live. The ability to deserve your dream and the fight to win in your love is always because of the ‘courage’, ’firmness in your decision’ and being ‘selflessly selfish’ in love. When this courage happens, you will find opportunities to achieve your ambition. You will soon realize that the night before the dawn is always the darkest and there is life if we fight. Words of condolence is easily said but taking and doing that into life is the hardest ever and you have to only live with that pain to understand how tough it is when the love has been the greatest ever. You have to find that opportunity to start living once again, and definitely there is always one, whether to keep drowning for endless pain or go above to fulfill that ‘one’ promise.            

"மின்னலே நீ வந்ததேனடி..என் கண்ணிலே ஒரு காயமென்னடி..என் வானிலே நீ மறைந்துப் போன மாயமென்னடி"

"கண் விழித்துப் பார்த்தபோது கலைந்த வண்ணமே..உன் கை ரேகை ஒன்று மட்டும் நினைவுச் சின்னமே!

கதறிக் கதறி எனது உள்ளம் உடைந்து போனதே..இன்று சிதறிப் போன சில்லில் எல்லாம் உனது பிம்பமே..

கண்ணீரில் தீ வளர்த்தே காத்திருக்கிறேன்..உன் காலடித் தடத்தில் நான் பூத்திருக்கிறேன்.."

         Wish we had been born elsewhere. I cannot understand the ‘societal rituals’ here and the reasons for ‘institutional weddings’ with pointless dumping of the real love souls. Two human beings (as taken in by Earth) and there is always the third human-being trying to interfere; what is this point? Who are you? What is this culture? Where are you from? You are entirely breaking the nature of this world. There is nothing that the two beings could when the third person is so heavier to influence everything these two persons hold to. This culture has to change. This has affected endless people and all they live is one aimless, regardless life filled with unhappiness, sorrow and guilt. All these sorrow has led to a regressive growth in the society and that has definitely affected the overall growth of the nation. How many people are aimlessly unhappy like this? How many are facing this ugly truth every day? How many start pretending to survive by performing their invincible ‘act’? But, I swear to God that there could no person other than me to be that ‘most unlucky, unblessed, unhappiest soul ever the world has seen’ just because I have loved the most. What is this point? God has to answer my call.

"சில்லென்று பூமி இருந்தும்..இந்த தருணத்தில் குளிர்காலம் கோடை ஆனதேனோ..

வா அன்பே நீயும் வந்தால், செந்தணல் கூட பனிகட்டி போல மாறுமே"

                  ‘Near, far, wherever you are I believe that the heart does go on’. The heart keeps reciting the name of you only. There is no place for any other as you have taken the heart completely and never really returned back and I don’t wish that you return it to me. Stay with it and wishing you all good things in life. Understanding and adapting to each other is the eternal form of love. Understanding you and getting to know that creating that chance is the most difficult thing. But I really wish, we could be re-born elsewhere soon and be together at-least in the next, as you always say. You are poetic, you are graceful and always the best things will happen for you. Never could stop writing all these thoughts and lots more to come, as will keep writing the whole life. I always wish and keep dreaming for that ‘dream’ to happen. ‘Once more you open the door, and you're here in my heart, and my heart will go on and on’. Hope is a good thing; maybe the best of things and no good things ever dies. I will be forever living with hope. It will be the first man drowning in the deepest ocean, facing death and even then hoping to fulfill the promise one day. ‘Love can touch us one time and last for a lifetime; and never let go till we're gone’. ‘Love was when I loved you; one true time I hold to. In my life we'll always go on’. I always hold true to what I believe the most in the world. It is you. The greatest love stories in the world have never been told and that is why we are unaware what the greatest is. Let this be the top right up there as the greatest just for us having lived, loved, breathed and prayed love like no one else ever in the history of mankind. ‘I can see you in the faces of the sky; but it never reaches me. I can smell your fragrance in the breeze; but how can you ask me to live like this’. There is no life without you. There is no sky without the Earth. There is nothing else. Deserve your dream. Try it out. Let us fight till our last moment. Live with the hope that the poles actually meet each other someday. There is still sunshine in this hopeless winter. ‘Thank you for everything’. You really meant it that day. I didn't know. I wish that these words are reversed. These words could be taken back. I really do. A dream. There is still hope for this ‘drowning’ man! The hope that will keep the soul alive, for little longer!

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The curious case of JIGARTHANDA - An Epic Feast!

              Through Jigarthanda, the quality of Indian cinema just got richer. After innumerable reviews and of course, loads of appreciation for Jigarthanda already, I still couldn’t stop myself writing about this epic classic. Karthik Subbaraj has taken the world into the historic city of Madurai in its contemporary style and delivered a world-class cinema that will be remembered for ages.

            When people argue about whether Jigarthanda showcases the crime imitating art or the art imitating crime, I see the movie depicting a crime which felicitates art and the art which suppresses that crime. It is quite unusual for cinema to come across a film like Jigarthanda which is nothing less than a humongous milestone for the entire industry. It is arguably the finest kind of film-making the industry could have seen in a decade or so. Such was the effort of the entire team that every frame is sculpted to a divine grace. The sculpture was built off a single rock and the final product was however having beauty all around. Truly, Indian cinema could have never witnessed a film that conveyed the power of cinema as a medium to influence people so much than what Jigarthanda did.

         Jigarthanda Trailer . The movie as an experience is unparallel to anything I have seen of late. Enthralling performances, quintessential music, parallel-quoted maverick screenplay, violent-patient fantasising cinematography and to top it all a commanding direction, Jigarthanda brings out the best from every resource to make it an epic composition. It takes the courage of Siddharth’s calibre to play the character allowing the demon to rock from other end. Many times, missions fail without a balanced launch-pad and Siddharth as a talented young director chasing his first film fills the role as perfect as anything to be that launch-pad for ‘Bobby’ Simha. After all the result is eventually to make Jigarthanda the sweeter it is meant to be. Simha’s lifetime performance as A.Sethu will remain longer in the hearts of filmgoers and there cannot be surprises if he wins as many awards as applicable, since every bit of them, he deserves it thoroughly. The characters Oorni, Raasu, Palani, Senthil, Soundar, Kayal, Muthu (the acting teacher, wow!) will be immortal just because of the fact that every character is uniquely sketched for a masterpiece.

Jigarthanda Poster

            








               Jigarthanda easily falls in the league of Mani Ratnam’s Kannathil Muththamittaal, Bala’s Nandha, Ameer’s Paruthiveeran, M.Sasi Kumar’s Subramaniyapuram and to a great extent Gautham Vasudev Menon’s romantic classic Vinnaithaandi Varuvaaya for adopting meticulous, passionate film-making and inducing life in every frame remaining in our lives and as part of them forever. Very rarely such films occur in Indian cinema and Jigarthanda (rightly chosen as Forbes’s Top 5 Indian movies to watch in 2014) delivers a master-class attaining this cult-status. Films like these bring pride and joy together and cast away all the benchmark and blue-print for its legacy of films to come. It is fortunate as well as amusing to quote, the genius Karthik Subbaraj has just arrived. Therefore, it will be pleasing to know, there are lot of archery up his castle and the battlefields are getting ready to be made.

            The film is a monumental production in terms of uncompromising imagination and quality, special thanks to producer Kathiresan for allowing the director to bring his story to life. Santosh Narayan’s music is one of the greatest value-additions in the film; unbelievable music composition right from the beginning to end. The theme music for the don, the gibberish interlude, the Jigar and the Thanda montages, Kannamma song’s orchestration and RR, everything from Santosh is just mesmerizing and elevates the film to an altogether different level. Jigarthanda, I believe has also showcased how tearing apart the ‘image’ of a person could be an unbearable factor and that the cinema medium has every power on Earth to make or break anyone; everyone!

Karthik Subbaraj, Siddharth and Karunakaran during the making of Jigarthanda

            












          Karthik Subbaraj’s Jigarthanda is an immortal classic which will pave way for more similar ideologies to arise as movies in the years to come. The director’s vision has rightly given the confidence, pride and joy to the people at the right time which itself is the biggest achievement for the film. This is great for the entire team and particularly the director as the mastermind for bringing Quentin Tarantino kind of absolute film-making in Indian cinema. There are still secrets to identify even after watching the film multiple times and that is even more special for the film. Never before realized the value of tears and just by seeing the one drop of tear in Simha’s eyes, Jigarthanda says it all!

Jigarthanda: Epic Feast!

The Chronicles of Love - Valentine's Day!

The Chronicles of Love

“Work without love is deplorable;

Work with love is desirable;

Love without work is divine...”

                Our world is tied down with love. Its perimeter (of course, sphere structures can have perimeters) is the magnitude of love every soul in the world sprouts on one another. Sharply, one could say, the world as of now survives, just because a part of mankind still lives on love – many unknowingly – and only that eternal feel of the soul keeps this planet still alive. Exploring that tiniest part out of the million other features that runs the lives of people is what excites, illuminates, dismantles, directs, dilutes and many times restructures people, processes and performance.

                Nobody could ever say that one is not ever loved. From the moment one breathes or in-takes the first breath of oxygen out of this gaseous Earth into the lungs, love enters through the breath. Maybe that is the reason, it is often quoted, ‘love is in the air’ as it seems to be. The divine nature of selflessness and the eternal being of the ultimate force are the factors contributing to this unbelievable feeling called love. Indeed, ‘self is loveless-ness and love is selfless-ness’ is true in every spirit. Once you break the barriers of yourself, love dominates your ‘self’ and once you uphold the principles predicting that the barriers do exist, your ‘self’ dominates your love.

                From the day I remember that I as a person exist in the world or the day I received my senses in my earliest childhood, I felt that something other than people, place and knowledge surrounds everyone and that invisible ‘feature’ orders anything and everything that involves you. It took me so long to discover what the feeling is and how much that feeling could do and realized that the ‘invisible feature’ alone had made decisions for me more than me making for myself. Of course, the invisible feature in description is termed as Love. One predicts that the entirety of the soul is the feel of satisfaction and the need at the same time. Love is the one which provides stability to the soul and the purpose of life. When one takes in these two points to evaluate, it both ends in conjunction and contradiction, however the intersection is all but the soul’s desire to be happy.

                Love makes the self to explore its capabilities to search for its true match. This also gives the freedom to live life by one’s own terms and decide for ourselves the need to attain rebirth or die haplessly filled with regret. This feeling of love is crazy, intelligent, childish, matured, argumentative and assertive – all at the same time – believe it’s true! And one can never say which of the feelings could dominate over another in that particular moment. This is that feeling of uncertainty which excites delights and rejuvenates the soul to keep exploring the horizons of love. One feels the pain in happiness and one smile when pains roll over. The effects and consequences are not meaningful and that always creates a sense of illusion that the real hollowness is present with filled spaces. And the craziness continues to yet another level that whenever one comes with the loved one together, the heart switches on and the mind goes blank. There is no fear in letting this happen and when it happens only true things come out of it. When the true things come out, one will find the real happiness and satisfaction. It is not in the matter of how much one earns, how much one parties, how much fame and popularity one attains and how much dollars you throw for your everyday’s living. Most of the times, silence with your eyes gives you the greatest happiness. This silence takes years to switch on and if it is on, it switches on the best in you – the real best!  

                There have been rare moments of deadly silence within us when our hearts operate over our minds. And those are the moments in life which decide how and where and when and why, you live your life for the longest term. Whatever your minds decide, it is for that present moment and it vanishes over time and whatever hearts decide, those are the ones which define the entirety of life. Just because of this, the greatest people in history of this glorious world have always instructed our hearts to make decision and keep our minds quiet during the decision time. Decisions by the mind are calculative while decisions by the heart are real, satisfying, stable and true-to-you. The difference between living with love and defying with purpose is choosing to live by the decisions which makes you or which pushes you. Explore the difference and there is life!

                An awesome feel surrounded me one day. I was hapless and soulless every moment, when the divine within me shouts that the moment has come. Fortunately, I suddenly blinked my eyes to see in front of me, the twilight is brightening on her face. It is that one glorious moment in life years ago which transformed me to who I am now. I really meant what I said that I saw my twilight in the first moment I saw her. This is just because, I completely died myself to see my twilight and in the very next moment, I took her in to rebirth as the person I’m today! The feeling of life is feeling the soul blossoming. Even now, this moment when I’m writing this piece of truth, I sense the feel of the first look I had on ever, as though it happened just early this evening – the truth however is that it happened years ago. I believe even this feeling is true as time and tide doesn't exist in the world of love. The only things present in this greatest world mankind have ever known are ‘pain’ and ‘gain’ – anything surrounding love can be invariably categorized into these two giants of love.

                In this moment of truth, one must also admit that not everyone has found this world revolving. Else, they knew the world exists but are tied down by ‘foolish’ extravagant forces not to take the ‘space vehicle’ of heart to jump into this. All I could say is that these forces are stupid in every sense and YOLO (You Only Live Once) signifies that everything whatever you could do, just do it! Just do it! The best thing one could do being born is to live a life filled with no regrets at all. If you believe in something and if you live by the decisions your heart systems provide, just do it no matter what the consequences could be. Because YOLO is true. If you want to say or share anything about everything, just talk straight from your heart. Because YOLO do exists.

                The greatest thing the devil ever did is making everyone believe it didn't exist. Sometimes the devil of love does that. Whenever one sees a natural calamity or a brutal man-made attack, we believe the devil has returned. When one analyzes this situation that if world is said to be filled with love and the world is a beautiful place just because love exists, how do people destroy love then? The answer lies within the question itself. Love exists and these are the extravagant forces to test the people about their in life. This has been proved numerous times in the history and that proof is the reason why mankind is alive even today! The devil blinked its eyes even in the Stone Age of man when they fought for food and place. The quest for power, fame, women and land has deceived mankind to blink the devil’s eyes innumerable times since that time starting from the nailing the Christ in the 0 B.C. (Zero century B.C.) to the height of slavery in middle-east and Africa to the days of American independence to Russian renaissance in communism to the two ‘cruel’ world wars to India’s struggle to independence to as present as September 11, 2001 or November 26, 2008. But the world has come over all of these to see the light of today’s dawn quite successfully. However the feel of the devil blinking anytime surrounds people and that is fear of life to many. I again wish to pronounce that this uncertainty is what makes the feeling all the more special.

                I suppose that the people’s smiles are ignited by love. When I wrote ‘A smile at billion hearts’ I must admit that my heart dominated over my mind and that is why it made the writing special for me. People! My fellowmen! My contemporaries! Please let your heart do the talking of your decisions in life. Please let your love reaches out to people who crave and care for real affection. Please imbibe the art of loving and being loved in you. Please lift your soul to a space that can live without oxygen and not without love. If this happens, the devil this world sees now and often could never return from its dark. It is not just quality education, sophisticated infrastructure, healthy living, nutritious food, disease-less people and ever-smiling mankind which makes this world a beautiful world, it is also the world filled with love and laughter which makes the world even more desirable. Let wars shut down, hatred sleep, vengeance locked and the cruel changes the user but let alone the operating system of love keeps running without any malfunction. There is no backup or recovery tool if the devil returns. Let us love to put this world upfront to goodness and godliness.

                The love of the mother is to see her children hale and healthy. The love of the loving ones is to see their loved ones loving them infinitely. The love of the children is to watch their worlds in difference filled with innocence all the time. The love of the soldier is to live in peace. The love of the King is to restore harmony in self and self-surrounding people. The love of GOD is to make this world stable, honest and far better place so much to an extent that the people are born to live and die and live and die and live and die end number of times to accumulate endless love. The love of the creator is to find his or her creations to reach as many as it could and influence the lives to raise to at least some more goodness than existing. This creation if it falls in the category of making people’s lives change for the better, I am sure the love inside me will reach the eternal glory!

Love makes life beautiful!

Love is what life is all about!

Love to see your skies breaking to heaven!

Love is you and me!

Love!