- A Dream -
Life is all it takes
to live in the present and that is it. But here, what we do every day is
survival and search for a life which actually does not exist at all. Just
imagine that you are living your bizarre wildest dream literally. A gigantic
ship breaks down in the mid-Atlantic Ocean and you are freezing to death. There
will be moments once the havoc happens which your brain will preach that you
could survive somehow. As the minutes pass by, unconsciously your nerve drops
and the hope of life starts disappearing bit by bit. A fight erupts within you
whether to go for the life you truly deserve to be lived more or let go without
facing the toughest non-sense reality prevailing outside. Your brain leaves you
aside and there will be only your heart controlling you meticulously. There
will be again moments of little hope and huge good-bye to the world. You are
freezing like the polar ice and start drowning slowly into the deepest ‘black’
ocean. Your legs begin to tap for a life that doesn't exist.
Your lungs want to breathe in as much air as possible for the one last
time. Your hands wish to reach above the sea level and at-least ask for help
for God’s sake. Those will be the minutes of your life that you would have
lived to the fullest. There is hardly anyone inside that deadliest ocean to
save you and that moment when you realize your dreadful loneliness, it is the
most painful thing ever a soul could face. You keep drowning till the bottom and
touch the land that you could never feel or maybe you might die before you
touch at all. For the courtesy being attached to a soul’s body, your limbs will
shiver. The moment will lead to an eternal silence. Your breath will never
respond to your conscience. There is only one way to go to reach comfort and
that is leaving your soul out of your own. There will be no brain. There will
be no sunshine anymore. There will not be opportunities from here on to be with
your dearest. There will no space. There will be no time. There will be only
the heart echoing in that eternal silence which will be heard by none. The
heart pleads, begs for mercy, punches every living cell to death and forgives
the pain-givers at the very last moment. There will not be any desires. There
will not be hope. There will be no God. There will be no Love. All that is left
is regret that there is a promise which has been left unfulfilled.
A promise made to your dearest leading to live this ‘one born’ life forever
together. A promise pledged that whatever may happen, we together stand firm
and beat all the ‘odds’ and achieve a life that we truly deserve. A promise
made of eternal love united by Godly elements and driven by life’s biggest
passion of being ‘us’ and not ‘me’ or ‘You’. A promise done that will stand
between your life and death. A ‘promise’ decided in the name of God, heaven and
Earth that could be only broken by death. A promise made to be immortal in
every form which has never let mortal beings take leverage about it. But this
‘promise’ made never did anything except an intolerable pain and this cruel
death day by day.
Deep from the deepest
of the deadliest ocean, you keep wishing to rise from the dead which you
already are. However, your wounds in life never let you come out of it. Your
vulnerability and unpredictability which has led to the gruesome hatred in your
life never even wants the soul to rise again. A part of your heart beats for
the promise to keep while the largest part of your heart wishes to fade away in
death. This fight of eternity is what love could give you at the end of it all.
It all ends today. There is no life anymore. Always the bigger wins over the
innocent smaller. Even in the societies we dwell in, large influential families
take their own decisions and suppress the smaller, good-thinking, help-minded
innocent family souls. It is not just about love and happiness of a
living-being, for the narrow-minded ‘large’ families, it is all about the
invisibly cruel ego, esteem, self-privilege, status, money and what not; it
does include every form of trash, useless prejudice and pointless relative-peer
pressure.
"வாயில்லாமல் போனால் வார்த்தையில்லை பெண்ணே..
நீயில்லாமல் போனால் வாழ்க்கையில்லை கண்ணே..
முள்ளோடு தான் முத்தங்களா சொல் சொல்!
பாவையில்லை பாவை ,தேவையென்ன தேவை..
ஜீவன் போன பின்னே சேவை என்ன சேவை ..
முள்ளோடு தான் முத்தங்களா சொல் சொல்!"
"காற்றின் அலை வரிசை கேட்கின்றதா..கேட்கும் பாட்டில் ஒரு உயிர் விடும் கண்ணீர் வழிகின்றதா.. நெஞ்சு நனைகின்றதா..இதயம் கருகும் ஒரு வாசம் வருகிறதா"
"வானம் எங்கும் உன் பிம்பம்; ஆனால் கையில் சேரவில்லை!
காற்றில் எங்கும் உன் வாசம்; வெறும் வாசம் வாழ்க்கையில்லை!
உயிரை வேரோடு கிள்ளி, என்னைச் செந்தீயில் தள்ளி, எங்கே சென்றாயோ கள்ளி..
ஓயும் ஜீவன் ஓடும் முன்னே, ஓடோடி வா.."
Love is a pledge; love is a bond for
life; love is selfless; love is selflessly ‘selfish’; love is independent; love
is not dependent on any other ‘external force’; love is internally-woven; love
is a promise that lives forever. There have been moments in history where
people have waited eons and eons for their disappeared loved ones to come back
to them, only to find their death when that person never came back. There have also
been moments when people have lost their lives in the nature of impossible
chance to live together. I often wish that I could have born in that era. That
era meant no travelling and everything happened domestically and not like
today where people travel and stay away from home and made to be present
in that moment where love happens and finally all end up in a disaster. You
never knew when love happens but it just happens in the space of time by a
heavenly force. A life full of love happens completely in that fraction of a
section and from there on it only keeps growing to infinity like there is no
sky or a universe to bind it. Nobody really knows what the future
holds for you but when love happens, you decide the future presuming that you
are the God of your destiny. But all that happens is a pure ‘lie’ which has
never really been told even though millions and millions of souls have faced
this ugly truth and still living like the logs of wood meant for house-fire.
That moment of lifelessness takes away all your desires, hope, love, music and
God in you. All it leaves behind is a soulless body of yours which is certainly
depleted. You are left alone feeling like an age-old suffering in medical pain
in the terrible winter in the Arctic continent. You wonder what life is all
about and when you look back there is nothing but emptiness. You are said to
‘assume’ that we live in each other forever and for the information, that
‘assumption’ is the most dreadful thing as it keeps reminding about the
dearest’s absence along-with the ‘golden’ memories and the present pain inside
the unblessed soul of the sufferer. You cry like a man pleading for water in a
desert, ultimately drinking his own tears. You become insane to the fact that
your own room seems to be bigger like the whole world and it terribly frightens
you to step outside. You feel like life is converging to a point called as
“death’ and you keep wishing to converge any time sooner. Sooner the better
will be your inner-call.
"உன்னாலே உயிர் வாழ்கிறேன் உனக்காக பெண்ணே; உயிர் காதல் நீ காட்டினாய் மறவேனே அன்பே!
இதுவரை உன்னுடன் வாழ்ந்த என் நாட்கள் மறுமுறை வாழ்ந்திட வழி இல்லையா..
இருளில் தேடிய தேடல்கள் எல்லாம் விடியலை காணும் விதி இல்லையா..."
Honestly, there is
only ‘one life’. Naturally, you cannot know whether you are now living your nth life
or have you ever lived before nor will you live after. You are also not sure
that whether you will be meeting your dearest in the next birth or not. It is
poetically great to listen but the pure truth is that there is only present and
only this moment which you are breathing now is real and nothing else. So life
with so much of fantasies can now be narrowed down to this present point where
there is only truth and let us understand there is only one opportunity for the
world’s eternal beings in love ever. “If not now, then when? If not you, then
who?” are the truest wisdom which needs to arise now. You need to be
independent to lead a life that you truly deserve else there is no point in the
‘act’ which we all gratefully perform. “Deserve your dream” is the ultimate
point in anyone’s life and if there is no life at all, then there could be no
dreams which you know you deserve. If you do not live to deserve your dream,
then what is the essence of life from its most fundamental point? True! There are
always situations in life which gives us two options like the drowning to death
in the Ocean. There will be hurdles, there will be tears, there will be panic
but all that takes it make you live an ‘unworthy’ life. There will be
sacrifices, there will be inconsolable pain, there will be loss but all it
leads a pointless life which you often there is no need to live. The ability to
deserve your dream and the fight to win in your love is always because of the
‘courage’, ’firmness in your decision’ and being ‘selflessly selfish’ in love.
When this courage happens, you will find opportunities to achieve your
ambition. You will soon realize that the night before the dawn is always the
darkest and there is life if we fight. Words of condolence is easily said but
taking and doing that into life is the hardest ever and you have to only live
with that pain to understand how tough it is when the love has been the
greatest ever. You have to find that opportunity to start living once again,
and definitely there is always one, whether to keep drowning for endless pain
or go above to fulfill that ‘one’ promise.
"மின்னலே நீ வந்ததேனடி..என் கண்ணிலே ஒரு காயமென்னடி..என் வானிலே நீ மறைந்துப் போன மாயமென்னடி"
"கண் விழித்துப் பார்த்தபோது கலைந்த வண்ணமே..உன் கை ரேகை ஒன்று மட்டும் நினைவுச் சின்னமே!
கதறிக் கதறி எனது உள்ளம் உடைந்து போனதே..இன்று சிதறிப் போன சில்லில் எல்லாம் உனது பிம்பமே..
கண்ணீரில் தீ வளர்த்தே காத்திருக்கிறேன்..உன் காலடித் தடத்தில் நான் பூத்திருக்கிறேன்.."
Wish we had been born elsewhere. I
cannot understand the ‘societal rituals’ here and the reasons for
‘institutional weddings’ with pointless dumping of the real love souls. Two
human beings (as taken in by Earth) and there is always the third human-being
trying to interfere; what is this point? Who are you? What is this culture?
Where are you from? You are entirely breaking the nature of this world. There
is nothing that the two beings could when the third person is so heavier to
influence everything these two persons hold to. This culture has to change.
This has affected endless people and all they live is one aimless, regardless
life filled with unhappiness, sorrow and guilt. All these sorrow has led to a
regressive growth in the society and that has definitely affected the overall
growth of the nation. How many people are aimlessly unhappy like this? How many
are facing this ugly truth every day? How many start pretending to survive by
performing their invincible ‘act’? But, I swear to God that there could no
person other than me to be that ‘most unlucky, unblessed, unhappiest soul ever
the world has seen’ just because I have loved the most. What is this point? God
has to answer my call.
"சில்லென்று பூமி இருந்தும்..இந்த தருணத்தில் குளிர்காலம் கோடை ஆனதேனோ..
வா அன்பே நீயும் வந்தால், செந்தணல் கூட பனிகட்டி போல மாறுமே"
‘Near, far, wherever you are I believe that the
heart does go on’. The heart keeps reciting the name of you only. There is no
place for any other as you have taken the heart completely and never really
returned back and I don’t wish that you return it to me. Stay with it and
wishing you all good things in life. Understanding and adapting to each other
is the eternal form of love. Understanding you and getting to know that
creating that chance is the most difficult thing. But I really wish, we could
be re-born elsewhere soon and be together at-least in the next, as you always
say. You are poetic, you are graceful and always the best things will happen
for you. Never could stop writing all these thoughts and lots more to come, as
will keep writing the whole life. I always wish and keep dreaming for that
‘dream’ to happen. ‘Once more you open the door, and you're here in my heart,
and my heart will go on and on’. Hope is a good thing; maybe the best of things
and no good things ever dies. I will be forever living with hope. It will be
the first man drowning in the deepest ocean, facing death and even then hoping
to fulfill the promise one day. ‘Love can touch us one time and last for a
lifetime; and never let go till we're gone’. ‘Love was when I loved you; one
true time I hold to. In my life we'll always go on’. I always hold true to what
I believe the most in the world. It is you. The greatest love stories in the
world have never been told and that is why we are unaware what the greatest is.
Let this be the top right up there as the greatest just for us having lived,
loved, breathed and prayed love like no one else ever in the history of
mankind. ‘I can see you in the faces of the sky; but it never reaches me. I can
smell your fragrance in the breeze; but how can you ask me to live like this’.
There is no life without you. There is no sky without the Earth. There is
nothing else. Deserve your dream. Try it out. Let us fight till our last
moment. Live with the hope that the poles actually meet each other someday.
There is still sunshine in this hopeless winter. ‘Thank you for everything’.
You really meant it that day. I didn't know. I wish that these words are
reversed. These words could be taken back. I really do. A dream. There is still
hope for this ‘drowning’ man! The hope that will keep the soul alive, for little longer!
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